Learning about yourself

This year has been hard for many. Many have lost their jobs, lost family members, and so much more. Personally, I consider myself fortunate because I have not suffered a major loss due to Covid-19. That being said it doesn’t mean it hasn’t been difficult. I remember the day everything was shut down just like it was last week. Back in March my mother came into my room early in the morning to tell me that I would not be returning to school until after the scheduled spring break. I felt so many mixed emotions all at once. I was concerned that my senior year would be cut short but also felt relieved that I would not have to deal with school work for a while. After a while of turning it over and over in my head the fear set in. No one has ever really experienced something like this before. What are the protocols? I was full of questions. These questions lingered for the next few months. I went through different stages of anger, sadness, and peace. It relieved me of my high school drama I was looking to avoid for so long but I also missed going to school and seeing all my teachers. It was a lot for someone to go through but I was glad I wasn’t going through it alone. It helped me not dwell on the all negative aspects of life. Whenever I would start to get worked up about how hard life was I found myself trying new hobbies to try to distract myself. It helped me learn so much about myself.

I know this pandemic seems never ending but I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reason and there is a lesson in everything.